boring day...weird feeling of depression coming on. wishing i could stop it. exercise does not relieve stress...though i'm going back at it after supper. i think. this month seems to be moving along pretty fast. just hoping i can advance in my career as a soldier and not get told 'well due to cutbacks you cannot go active army' cause what would the point in trying to get promoted and **** if i get home and only be making $20-$50 more at drill, unless i go to college but i dont really want to because i wouldn't be going for any reason other than to get bah for going and i'd be under stress to pass cause if i fail i'd have to pay the money back and that would suck. it already sucks that i am paying 6500 for the bull**** semester that i did take. finally focusing on myself though which is good and my life choice of making this my career, and not what other people think or expect of me and i have stopped trying to win affection from women. i figure hell with that, sure it's fun and all for the first week then it all goes to hell from there and all women are like that so i'll just stay single and rich until the right one comes along and tries to win my affection...not going to make the mistake again of letting a woman run my life and decide what i can or can't do. **** that **** forever.
"Without strife, the victory has no meaning. Without strife, one does not advance. Without strife, there is only stagnation."