was depressed today til i went to the gym for some brazilian jujitsu training-which i suck at but still i felt a hundred times better afterwards. i think some things are changing with the way i think and the way i deal with people.
depressed because we're possibly having our shifts changed, which means less time for training, and they are making us take online classes which have nothing to do at all with our jobs here or back home. there's not much i can do about it besides 'not do it' and get negative counseling statement, but after this stuff i am questioning whether i really want to be a nco.
Battle is a pure form of expression. It is heart and discipline, reduced to movement and motion. In battle, the words are swept away, giving way to actions-- mercy, sacrifice, anger, fear. These are pure moments of expression.