getting depressed again...i think there's something seriously wrong with me but im way too cool to talk to a professional about it. i give myself about 3 months when i get home if nothing changes i'll look for some help. -_-
i just have this feeling like when i get home that things won't be any different than back when i got home from basic...it may be nice and fun at first but 2 months later, the whole ****ing world and everything i care about will say **** you with the middle finger in my direction. i guess i just have to stay strong and not have a mental breakdown. maybe ill start going to church when i get home. idk what else to do. i'm usually optimistic about things, but the last time i pretty much fell off a cliff for someone it ****ing hurt me...
i guess i learned something from a few hard earned lessons. i'll do good for myself, **** everyone else. step on toes to get ahead, no remorse.
think i discovered why im feeling like this: vitamin deficiency. that's gotta be it.
Battle is a pure form of expression. It is heart and discipline, reduced to movement and motion. In battle, the words are swept away, giving way to actions-- mercy, sacrifice, anger, fear. These are pure moments of expression.
Last edited by Rogue15; 05-18-2013 at 05:58 PM.